Today is about confessions...As I started the P90X Challenge, I promised myself and others that I would follow the program to a T. I would do every workout and follow the food plan perfectly. Yesterday, I broke my promise. I had a pretty bad day nutritionally speaking...I won't say how bad, but bad. I know weight loss and staying in shape is 80% nutrition and 20% workouts. I feel like I've got my workouts down. They are just a part of my day and I don't even think about them anymore. Nutrition continues to be my downfall. Food has always been my comfort, my reward, my boredom buster and seems to be a staple of any friend/family party. I can follow a nutrition plan perfectly for a couple of weeks, then I start to feel deprived, get angry and fall off the wagon. I can not for the life of me figure out how to break this cycle. I've been trying for over 4 years now and I don't know what I'm missing. Why can't I resist temptations around me when they go against one of my most deeply held goals?
Confession 2...if you haven't figured it out already I'm having a hard time not listening to that tape in my head saying "see Erin, you can't do this", "just give up already", "you are not going to get there" and so on. I know most people will say "It was just one bad day, do better the next." I agree...to a point. This has been a goal of my all my life, but I really started to address these issues seriously about 4-5 years ago. Today, I'm tired. I'm tired of the struggle, I'm tired of the constant battle that I have to fight to get to where I want to be. I don't understand what continues to get in the way of me reaching a goal that I want more than anything right now.
I haven't meant for this entry to sound like Debbie Downer, but when I set out to start this blog I wanted to show everything, the good and the bad. This is not an easy process and I'm struggling today. I know I will pick myself back up again and the journey will continue...
If you are interested in joining me in my journey or are struggling and want someone to help you through the rougher times, please feel free to respond to this blog or contact me at erinkterry@beachbodycoach.com, erinkterry@hotmail.com, coacherinterry@gmail.com or find me on Facebook at http://www.facebook.com/erin.terry.3956
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Sunday, October 21, 2012
My new normal
So this has been a big week for me in terms of my journey to fitness. I am currently on day 6 of no Diet Coke. For those you know that know me, you rarely saw me without one in my hand. The first few days I was a REALLY uncomfortable and craved a Diet Coke every second of the day. After making it through the first few days and getting some tips from friends at Beachbody's Team Dynasty, I am really starting to feel better about it. I'm using Iced Tea to help with the caffeine withdrawal (I'll eventually get rid of that too), sparkling water with Crystal Light and this amazing "soda" called Zevia I found at a local health food store. Its made from all natural flavors and is sweetened with stevia rather than aspartame like you find in Diet Coke. After one week, I can tell the cravings are going WAY down and I'm able to handle them much better when they show their ugly faces!
Second I started P90X. I posted a YouTube video of my first workout, the good the bad and the ugly. Let me repeat that... I, Erin Terry, Anxiety Girl extraordinaire and world's biggest self critic posted a video on YouTube. I plan to do this at least once weekly in order to keep myself accountable, but also to show that even if you are in the middle of your journey to fitness it's ok to let the world see you struggle and succeed. I'm still a bigger girl, but I want to show that I'm giving this journey every ounce of me that I have.
Finally, and probably the thing I am most proud of...I finished the Savage Race, the race built to "kick your ass". The first race I did, I made it through, but this one was different. I felt different. I felt like I was just as capable of at least attempting every single obstacle. I felt like an athlete, not just a fat girl trying to pretend to be one. I ran until it was time to wait for an obstacle or to quickly recover for no more than 5 min. Did I mention that it was 6 miles yet? Yeah it was! I did obstacles on my own that I would have needed my team to literally lift me over that first race. I think my team lost me a couple of times because I was ahead of where they thought I would be. The only regret I have from this race is I wasn't able to complete the last obstacle. I gave it 110% and tried 4 times. I was so frustrated that I didn't accomplish it that I almost let it ruin every other amazing thing I had done that day. But today as I write this, I think about all the things I DID DO. All the struggles I did overcome. Today, I'm ok with missing that last obstacle because I know I tried with every ounce of my being. I just fell a little short, and that's ok.
So, I think the biggest thing I've gotten this week, is a realization that I am doing really amazing things. I'm starting to get that tape in my head that's been on repeat for years telling me "you can't do that", "you're a loser", "no one likes you, stay by yourself", and "blah, blah, blah", to finally shut up!!!! I have always been an All or Nothing thinker. If I'm not perfect at something the first time I try it, I give up. That's why I never got past Frogger on an Atari (do they even make those anymore??). Well, that kind of thinking hasn't gotten me very far in life and has kept me from doing things that I have dreamed of. I'm finally becoming a "I'll do my best and see what happens" kind of thinker. Let me tell ya, it's a much easier and kinder way to go through life.
Now that I've written a novel (guess I had a lot to say today!!), I want to invite those of you that struggle with low self-esteem, those of you that think you can't do anything, those of you that think that you're not good enough, to join me in fighting for what we deserve simply because we are unique, amazing human beings! If you want to contact me and start to fight for your best life, feel free to do so at coacherinterry@gmail.com, erinkterry@hotmail.com and erinkterry@beachbodycoach.com. I PROMISE, I will support you in every way I can!! Thanks for reading!!
Second I started P90X. I posted a YouTube video of my first workout, the good the bad and the ugly. Let me repeat that... I, Erin Terry, Anxiety Girl extraordinaire and world's biggest self critic posted a video on YouTube. I plan to do this at least once weekly in order to keep myself accountable, but also to show that even if you are in the middle of your journey to fitness it's ok to let the world see you struggle and succeed. I'm still a bigger girl, but I want to show that I'm giving this journey every ounce of me that I have.
Finally, and probably the thing I am most proud of...I finished the Savage Race, the race built to "kick your ass". The first race I did, I made it through, but this one was different. I felt different. I felt like I was just as capable of at least attempting every single obstacle. I felt like an athlete, not just a fat girl trying to pretend to be one. I ran until it was time to wait for an obstacle or to quickly recover for no more than 5 min. Did I mention that it was 6 miles yet? Yeah it was! I did obstacles on my own that I would have needed my team to literally lift me over that first race. I think my team lost me a couple of times because I was ahead of where they thought I would be. The only regret I have from this race is I wasn't able to complete the last obstacle. I gave it 110% and tried 4 times. I was so frustrated that I didn't accomplish it that I almost let it ruin every other amazing thing I had done that day. But today as I write this, I think about all the things I DID DO. All the struggles I did overcome. Today, I'm ok with missing that last obstacle because I know I tried with every ounce of my being. I just fell a little short, and that's ok.
So, I think the biggest thing I've gotten this week, is a realization that I am doing really amazing things. I'm starting to get that tape in my head that's been on repeat for years telling me "you can't do that", "you're a loser", "no one likes you, stay by yourself", and "blah, blah, blah", to finally shut up!!!! I have always been an All or Nothing thinker. If I'm not perfect at something the first time I try it, I give up. That's why I never got past Frogger on an Atari (do they even make those anymore??). Well, that kind of thinking hasn't gotten me very far in life and has kept me from doing things that I have dreamed of. I'm finally becoming a "I'll do my best and see what happens" kind of thinker. Let me tell ya, it's a much easier and kinder way to go through life.
Now that I've written a novel (guess I had a lot to say today!!), I want to invite those of you that struggle with low self-esteem, those of you that think you can't do anything, those of you that think that you're not good enough, to join me in fighting for what we deserve simply because we are unique, amazing human beings! If you want to contact me and start to fight for your best life, feel free to do so at coacherinterry@gmail.com, erinkterry@hotmail.com and erinkterry@beachbodycoach.com. I PROMISE, I will support you in every way I can!! Thanks for reading!!
Sunday, October 14, 2012
My last race and my upcoming Challenge
So, I ran another obstacle course race yesterday. It wasn't the best (not enough obstacles, too much running). BUT...I ran so much more on this one that I did on the other!! I have some photos being developed right now. As soon as I get them I will try to post them on my blog so you can see more about this race. These races are amazing!! There is an automatic respect you earn from perfect strangers. I had, on more than one occasion, people cheering me on, and offer to wait at the top of an obstacle to help me get through it. I only ran with one other person, but he was a great motivator too! Next weekend is the Savage Race with Team Dynasty!! I am SO PUMPED!!! This one looks like a total beast and I can't wait! Amazing what you start to look forward to when you change your perspective and start trying new things!
Tomorrow I start P90X. I have promised myself and many other people that I will be following this program to a T. It will be 90 days and I think I might actually get to my goal weight in this time. I will filming myself everyday and documenting my progress on YouTube. I'm sure it won't be pretty in the beginning, but I AM SO looking forward to seeing the results at the end of the 90 days. Be watching for my YouTube posts!! I'm not gonna lie, I'm nervous. I have a lot of people counting on me to do as I say I will, but most importantly, I promised myself. There have been so many things I have promised myself that I don't finish (anyone else have that problem??) This is a promise I fully intend to keep. I bought an accountability bracelet that I will be wearing the entire 90 days to make sure I stick to my goals. The bracelet says "Dreams are made reality one choice at a time." I thought that was perfect!!!
As always, if you are looking for help reaching your goals, please contact me at coacherinterry@gmail.com, erinkterry@hotmail.com or on Facebook. My Beachbody website is http://www.BeachBodyCoach.com/erinkterry. You can learn about the products and company that are helping me change my life!!!!
Tomorrow I start P90X. I have promised myself and many other people that I will be following this program to a T. It will be 90 days and I think I might actually get to my goal weight in this time. I will filming myself everyday and documenting my progress on YouTube. I'm sure it won't be pretty in the beginning, but I AM SO looking forward to seeing the results at the end of the 90 days. Be watching for my YouTube posts!! I'm not gonna lie, I'm nervous. I have a lot of people counting on me to do as I say I will, but most importantly, I promised myself. There have been so many things I have promised myself that I don't finish (anyone else have that problem??) This is a promise I fully intend to keep. I bought an accountability bracelet that I will be wearing the entire 90 days to make sure I stick to my goals. The bracelet says "Dreams are made reality one choice at a time." I thought that was perfect!!!
As always, if you are looking for help reaching your goals, please contact me at coacherinterry@gmail.com, erinkterry@hotmail.com or on Facebook. My Beachbody website is http://www.BeachBodyCoach.com/erinkterry. You can learn about the products and company that are helping me change my life!!!!
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Welcome!
Hi!
I'm Erin Terry and this is my very first blog!! I am so excited to be sharing my journey to fitness with you. I have struggled with my weight all my life (I remember going on my first diet in 5th grade). Things didn't really get out of hand until a few years ago when I decided to move away from everything and everyone I knew. I wanted an adventure. So I moved to North Carolina and started working as a home based family therapist. What I got was a miserable job and life and over 100 extra lbs. I realized that I needed to come back home (Indiana) and get my big self together. A friend of my mom invited me to her gym and I quit eating fast food for every meal (Yes, EVERY MEAL). I eventually lost that extra 100lbs, but I still wasn't where I wanted to be. Fast forward a few years...I moved to Florida to be closer to my parents who had been here for about 3 years. I decided this was going to be the time that I changed myself and became the person I had wanted to be all my life. I invested thousands of dollars in a trainer and nutritionist. I learned a lot from both experiences, but I still wasn't where I wanted to be. I was still overweight and had low self-esteem. My weekends consisted of sitting on my couch alone watching movies or tv and feeling miserable. I had seen infomercials for Insanity and thought, "Hey, I've worked out hard with a trainer and even ran (well...jogged or walk-hopped) a couple of 5K's, I can keep up with this!". I made it one month and gave up. Several months later, some more weight gain and misery added, I decided to try again. This time I was going to finish, if it killed me!! The difference this time was that I stepped out of my comfort zone and decided to join 813 Fit Club. This was like nothing I had every seen before. It was a group of Beachbody coaches offering FREE workouts to people just to help keep them motivated. Long story short, I am now officially an Insanity Graduate!! There are not enough words in the world to describe how much these amazing people are helping me change my life. I am trying things I NEVER thought I would do. I ran a 6.4 mile obstacle course race a few weeks ago. It was the most challenging thing I've ever done, physically and mentally. But with the help of this amazing group, I FINISHED!!!!!! I am now signed up for 2 more this month, 1 5k in November and 1 in December. I even posted a video on YouTube and I'm starting this blog. I decided I wanted to pay forward the amazing gift I was given, so in July 2012, I became a Beachbody coach. I've not met my goals yet, but I'm closer than I have ever been IN MY LIFE!! In a few weeks I will be starting P90X (gotta finish my current program, ChaLean Extreme first). It is my goal to make this the program that gets to my final goal. I will follow this program to a T. No cheating, period. I'm sure I will have some rough times, but there isn't a thing worth having that comes easy. I've decided to document this process through this blog and YouTube videos. I am seeing real results in my body; results I have been after for years. But more importantly, I am starting to see myself in a positive way for the first time I think since I was a kid. This experience is changing me inside and out. I don't want this blog to be all about Beachbody, but since it is the company that is changing my life, I will talk quite a bit about it. If you are interested in joining me on my journey, feel free to respond to this blog or contact me at erinkterry@beachbodycoach.com or check out my website http://www.BeachBodyCoach.com/erinkterry
I'm Erin Terry and this is my very first blog!! I am so excited to be sharing my journey to fitness with you. I have struggled with my weight all my life (I remember going on my first diet in 5th grade). Things didn't really get out of hand until a few years ago when I decided to move away from everything and everyone I knew. I wanted an adventure. So I moved to North Carolina and started working as a home based family therapist. What I got was a miserable job and life and over 100 extra lbs. I realized that I needed to come back home (Indiana) and get my big self together. A friend of my mom invited me to her gym and I quit eating fast food for every meal (Yes, EVERY MEAL). I eventually lost that extra 100lbs, but I still wasn't where I wanted to be. Fast forward a few years...I moved to Florida to be closer to my parents who had been here for about 3 years. I decided this was going to be the time that I changed myself and became the person I had wanted to be all my life. I invested thousands of dollars in a trainer and nutritionist. I learned a lot from both experiences, but I still wasn't where I wanted to be. I was still overweight and had low self-esteem. My weekends consisted of sitting on my couch alone watching movies or tv and feeling miserable. I had seen infomercials for Insanity and thought, "Hey, I've worked out hard with a trainer and even ran (well...jogged or walk-hopped) a couple of 5K's, I can keep up with this!". I made it one month and gave up. Several months later, some more weight gain and misery added, I decided to try again. This time I was going to finish, if it killed me!! The difference this time was that I stepped out of my comfort zone and decided to join 813 Fit Club. This was like nothing I had every seen before. It was a group of Beachbody coaches offering FREE workouts to people just to help keep them motivated. Long story short, I am now officially an Insanity Graduate!! There are not enough words in the world to describe how much these amazing people are helping me change my life. I am trying things I NEVER thought I would do. I ran a 6.4 mile obstacle course race a few weeks ago. It was the most challenging thing I've ever done, physically and mentally. But with the help of this amazing group, I FINISHED!!!!!! I am now signed up for 2 more this month, 1 5k in November and 1 in December. I even posted a video on YouTube and I'm starting this blog. I decided I wanted to pay forward the amazing gift I was given, so in July 2012, I became a Beachbody coach. I've not met my goals yet, but I'm closer than I have ever been IN MY LIFE!! In a few weeks I will be starting P90X (gotta finish my current program, ChaLean Extreme first). It is my goal to make this the program that gets to my final goal. I will follow this program to a T. No cheating, period. I'm sure I will have some rough times, but there isn't a thing worth having that comes easy. I've decided to document this process through this blog and YouTube videos. I am seeing real results in my body; results I have been after for years. But more importantly, I am starting to see myself in a positive way for the first time I think since I was a kid. This experience is changing me inside and out. I don't want this blog to be all about Beachbody, but since it is the company that is changing my life, I will talk quite a bit about it. If you are interested in joining me on my journey, feel free to respond to this blog or contact me at erinkterry@beachbodycoach.com or check out my website http://www.BeachBodyCoach.com/erinkterry
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